Heretic Pride

Is not the same as ‘should of’

Should of means nothing.

In the gym, there was a girl wearing a Beowulf t-shirt to work out in. 

Oh, hello future wife, didn’t know you frequented these parts of town. 

Why are applications due so close to the Winter Recession if the universities and all of the offices involved are just going to close two days after? Students have questions about letters of rec, transcripts, and all sorts of supplemental materials, and the best you can offer is “OUT OF OFFICE”?! 

EMAIL ISNT ATTACHED TO ONE OFFICE. YOU. FREAK.

I make ten dollars a god damn hour and even I take my job home, you make a shit ton more, the least you could do is check your emails and give some kids a god damn break and not have them freaking out during the holidays. 

I AM ALSO APPLYING TO SCHOOL RIGHT NOW. THIS IS NUMERO UNO FOR ME TOO. SILLY. ASS. MOTHER. BLAAAAAAAAAH!!!!! 

On a side note: 

Now that I work with children my swearing has gone down tremendously. 

that I’ve been to Berkeley the fewest times after graduation out of my friends back home. Having a job gets in the way quite a bit, and not having a job also got in the way a lot in terms of not having money. I’m getting paid soon, but people are going back home for the holidays, so I feel it would be a waste. Either way, come Spring semester, I’ll make sure to be there more often. Even if it’s just for a weekend trip. I’ll have money and people will be there AND Berkeley spring weather can (sometimes) be awesome. I love Berkeley winter weather too, though, to be honest. 

I miss that place so god damned much, I just want to be done with apps and visit already. 

the writing sample allows for 30 to 40 pages but requires that the submission be double spaced. 

LAME. 

I had about 30 single spaced and I had to get rid of some of my spacing which I thought worked really well. 

Pissed. Super pissed to be honest. 

But I think I actually have a god damned chance at this whole grad school thing. 

I’m half way through the latest episode of Glee and it’s so bad that I’m instead on Tumblr. I liked the first half of the first season. I liked it a LOT. Then the second half of the first season kind of went who knows where but the season finale was sort of great and awesome and I totally dug it. 

This second season has been so… I have no idea what’s going on ever in the show. Ever. In tonight’s episode they talked about getting ready for sectionals and changing up the typical line up they have. 20 minutes later, they’re actually AT sectionals. Last week the episode started with an announcement of a wedding and, again, about 25 minutes later, the wedding was actually happening. I am supposed to believe that an entire wedding was planned in the span of a few days? Or did that episode actually just span about 16 weeks? 

This is a ridiculous show. 

I hate you so much because I know there’s part of me that will, when the time comes, actually consider you into my life, and I know that making a decision as big as the one I have in mind based on something so uncertain is absolutely stupid, idiotic, foolish, and doomed for failure. But for some reason which I still have yet to fully understand, my mind never really knew how to differentiate between riches and ruin. 

I hate you so much because I don’t actually think I’d be wasting anything, I hate you so much because I can’t understand priorities. 

God help me, please make the decision for me. 

I don’t even like that fucking city! And I HATE it down here as is! Everyone knows how much I hate it here, surprise everyone, fucking spoiler alert, I will always think Northern California is better than Southern California. I’ve defected to the other side of Cali, no mystery here, I went to a fantastic school with amazing people and amazing opportunities. All I want is more of it.